The difference between Delena breakup & Stelena breakup
Parallels the Vampire Diaries; 2x06 || 5x10
also in delena’s breakup, elena is a vampire with her humanity turned on. and apparently EVERY emotion is heightened, so she would feel more heartbroken, and so would damon, than what was shown in the delena breakup, whereas in the stelena breakup both stefan and elena are devasted completely, so she’s either sired still, or she didn’t love him nearly as much as she loved stefan, not even a tenth as much.
It’s not about how much she loves one or the other, it’s about how much she loves herself while she’s with a certain person. When she met Stefan, she was torn apart, emotionally. She was lost and lonely and she felt like no one understands what she’s going through. She basically lost her will to live - she was going day after day with no real purpose - she dropped the things she used to love doing, her friends had to make her get out of the house. Her diary was her only companion. Then Stefan came by and he helped her heal. He listened to her and talked to her and loved her the only way he knew how - and that was enough. With him, Elena wasn’t a girl who lost her parents, she became Elena Gilbert, someones girlfriend, friend, niece, sister. He showed her how to enjoy life again, even after a great tragedy strikes her, just by being him, by being there for her, by loving her. She wanted to live. She got over her survivor complex. So when she broke up with him, she didn’t feel like she’s falling apart. She didn’t feel like she’s going to go back to her old habits. It was sadness in its purest form because she was made to give up someone to protect someone else. It was like someone tearing one of your limbs off of your body - you will survive, but there’s always going to be something missing.
Now, Elena doesn’t feel sadness, she feels fear. Does anyone realize how many problems she would have to deal with if she actually set her mind to it? How many questions she would have to answer? Damon was a nice distraction - from everything she did, from everything she went through, from everything she doesn’t want to think about. She’s hiding behind him and slowly, she’s pushing all those things away. And they make her act like someone none of her loved ones recognize. With no humanity, Elena was acting like a vampire. Now, with her moral compass messed up, she’s acting like a monster, and one is not connected to the other. Elena saying that being a vampire is awesome is not her saying some crazy shit to make us all hate her - it’s literally the only thing she knows about herself. She’s a vampire, and the rest is lost. It’s a cry for help and no one seems to hear her. If Damon leaves her she will actually have to deal with her problems.
Stefan was her rock. She leaned on him, and he leaned on her, and they were in a perfect harmony. Damon and Elena are too heavy for nature, they’re crushing each other.
In preschool when I was 5, the boys bathroom had to get a ceiling repair so everyone had to use the girls bathroom and when I was in there some kid named Jimmy walked in.
And that was the first time I saw a penis